...sUndAy...
finally it has come to an end of another week...counting down of everyday makes me feel so excited as i have always been waiting n hoping for the arrival of 2006 ... while, on the other hand, it means that all my on hand projects are going to due soon....headache man~ BURN! Burn! burn! all projects had burn away all my weekends!!! no shopping...no entertainment...no clubbing activities anymore.... whew~ we have just finished our gbe project yesterday...haha.. i make full use of yesterday by trying to shop after combining the project at chris's home. chris shop with me at tiong bahru shopping centre...guess where we shop? haha...NTUC FAIRPRICE!!! haha.. that was the place i suggested to go...i bought big big chicken sausage that ah koh had recommended me...and also beancurd--> my favorites... knowing that it wasn't my shopping mood for that day, my mood was totally SPOILT!!!! so angry...for no reason i was being attitude by my fren...thats make me so pissed off~ i didn't shop much...
again!!!! i didn't receive his letter... empty mail-box...disappointment....somemore i chose not to visit him today... luckily..no emotional outburst...
below are messages that how i wish i am able to tell him...
"there are times when i can't decide whether to see you or not, i want to see you because i miss you but there are times when i don't want to see you because everytime i do, the fact that you don't see me the way i see you, hurts me even more...if i can, i will forget the times you walked by, forget the times you've made me cry, forget the times you held my hand and forget all the sweet thingstaht you had done for me..i know i can no longer pretend, i have to remember now that You're Just A Friend. i often feel this pain which never will you know because it is caused by the absence of you and what hurt me most, is knowing that i once had you and then lost you... never will i regret loving you because even if you didn't love me anymore, i know that you once did and that is the most wonderful feeling because i never thought that i deserved your love..."missing.u.badly~
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